Updated: May 15, 2019
I'm not going to pretend that I'm some sort of body positive queen. Because I am far from it. But it's something I really want to work on.
I've always found loosing weight difficult, even more so after becoming a Mum. I tend to do the yo-yo thing and pile on the pounds over winter and then do some crazy diet at the beginning of summer to try and shed it all. But I've never actually achieved my ideal weight probably because it’s a bit unachievable. I've tried a lot of methods, some healthy and some definitely not healthy.
I'm by no means obese.. my BMI says different though and so did the doctor when I asked about breast reduction. Mental! My boobs are probably half of my bloody weight Dr!! *rolls eyes*. But when the sun came out last weekend and I pulled my summer wardrobe out I felt the sudden urge to diet, I started thinking of ways I could get summer ready and fast! Then I remembered just how miserable being on a diet and restricting myself makes me. I become a monster! Don‘t get me wrong I would love to be a bit healthier, but I’m just not willing to put myself in a situation where I have to restrict the foods I love, having to think about what I can eat and plan every meal is not healthy for my mind at all!
And that’s the difference between this summer and all the other summers of my adult life.. I‘ve realised that me and dieting don’t mix and I’m okay with that because I have a new found acceptance for my body and all its lumpy bumpy bits. This year I’m going to turn this acceptance into LOVE!
I will never get rid of my tummy rolls because I’m just not willing to do some crazy Beyoncé style diet. I’m never going to have toned arms because I don’t want to or have time to spend every day in the gym. And my boobs will forever hang low because... gravity.